This weekend was such a loungin', relaxing, somewhat-productive weekend. The benefits of having really shit weather is that neither one of us wanted to step outside in the cold crazy winds, large raindrop showers and cold, and grey ominous skies.

What did we do all weekend? Haha. Like I said, loungin' and relaxin'. We were up so late on Friday playing Grand Theft Auto 5. I have to say it's a fun game. I didn't really play per se but I got to roam around a bit and randomly punch some people haha. I watched my fiance play quite a bit and it's pretty fun to watch. A friend of his and him played all night and we were up until 4am. So that meant Saturday was a write-off. We were up late again on Saturday because UFC was on with some pretty good card fights. The most I moved around was cooking some lunch and dinner for us. Really good chicken ... mmm ... glad there are leftovers for me to eat tonight.

In the midst of all the game playing and lounging was more drawing. I am on a roll! I managed to finish one of my art projects that I am quite proud of. I took my sweet time with it and I have to say it really shows when you do. I carefully planned out everything (well almost everything). This particular one, I had the cherry blossom branch done a long time ago because I was originally designing it as a tattoo I would possible have for myself then I thought about it because I wanted to change it and ended up using it for an art project. Check it out. This is my progressive work then the final product!


My Work In Progress


The Finished Product - "Spring Beginning"
I did that in a matter of two days and already got myself started on a new one. I actually had an original of this one but the look is incredibly different and I wanted to make it look nicer with a different style. Plus ... I can't find the original. It's somewhere in my parent's house along with other artworks that I cannot find (which pisses me off). One day I'll find it. Here's the progress so far ...


Blue Breeze - Work in Progress
So I have been drawing a lot lately and it's nice. I even set myself up an instagram account just for my artworks just so I can keep track of what I am doing and it is separate from my personal life. My user name is sharbarart if you would like to check it out. I tried to post whatever I could into with all the artworks that I at least have in my folders on my computer and wow ... I didn't expect such a welcomed response. I had so many likes that I guess it was an ego boost to my drawing skills. Looking through all of them and seeing the progress made me realize that I have improved a lot over the years. I was always so scared to draw something really nice because I was traumatized back in highschool.

I had a sketchbook that was my PRIZED POSSESSION. It was some of my BEST WORK EVER. For something at that age and just a beginning to my art days, I had never felt so proud of myself when it came to drawing. It made me wish I had a scanner or something back then but they weren't around much at that time. Anyways, I took it to school one day and the damn thing got stolen!!! I knew EXACTLY where I put it because, of course, I loved it so damn much and it got stolen. Ever since that day, I have been scared of drawing something incredible and still am to this day. That's why when I do draw something "nice", I take a photo right away or scan it. I'm slowly getting back into it again and maybe one day I'll do some commissions and make some money. Maybe that could be the side business that I have always wanted to start ... Sounds like the only logical thing at this point because all of my other ideas don't make much sense to me.

Anyways ... That's my weekend and my update on my passion in life ... art.

Labels: art, drawing, inspiration, life, memories, thoughts

So I have been trying to draw and paint a lot more lately. With the cooler weather setting in slowly, this is my ultimate scene that I can say is my "relaxing time": I sit at my table, I'm wrapped in a nice warm blanket, a nice cup of hot coffee in once hand and the entire table is covered with my drawing pencils, markers, coloring pencils and watercolor paints and away I go with a funny show running in the background on TV. It might not be a great moment for most people but it is for me. It's my only time of the week where I can forget about my busy days at work and other daily stresses. I just focus on what I want to do and that is let my imagination run wild and draw.

Like I said last post, I've been pretty sporatic when it comes to my artwork because of so many factors. Mainly, it's about time. I don't have the time to do anything other than go to work, cook, clean, sleep and spend whatever time I can with my fiance. I've been really tired lately and I feel beaten down by time. These things kinda help though. I find some of my best work come from turmoil of some sorts. I remember looking back at some of my best drawings and I remember what I felt while I drew them. I was always letting out some big emotion and it was great that it showed through. So having all these daily stresses and bogged down emotions are a great motivator when I start drawing. Tunnel vision.


Above is something I drew back in February or March. I was actually listening to Bruno Mars' song "Talking To The Moon" and that song had a significant meaning to me at the time and I went with it. Plus I was wanting to be adventurous and try out my markers because I have always been very scared of them. I am not very good with them and was really scared that I would mess us really bad because I'm not very good with them but it turned out better than I thought. It's still not the greatest piece of work I have done but I'm happy considering my skill level with markers suck.


From my last post, I was saying how I was falling in love with watercolors but I needed to venture into more than just flowers and such. Since I love drawing girls and having that anime type style, I actually drew a girl and said, "Why the hell not try it out on her?" It turned out okay ... I'm not entirely happy with it. I think she's pretty but I could have done wayyy better on the dress or the hair but then again it's because of my watercolor painting skill not really being up to par. I want to be good!!!!! So I'm still practicing. I have a drawing in process right now that I'm planning on painting and I'll see how that goes. I'll try to take my time with it so that maybe it might turn out better.

What is your guys' way to let go, be free and relax?

Labels: drawing, inspiration, life, self, thoughts

For the past few months (well to be realistic almost a year), I haven't worn too much makeup. There were a few reasons like I didn't want to spend the time doing it so I kept with just plain eyeliner and some lip balm; I didn't want to wear too much because I was having bad skin problems for a good few months and sometimes I was just too damn lazy. I do okay with just wearing the minimum since I didn't want to look like I hide behind make-up. I never really liked the look of looking like I was in some magazine photo shoot every single day. That's too much work and just TOO MUCH. The only reason I would really doll myself up was for special occasions and even so I didn't put on too much because I am an advocate of a natural look. There are ways to put on makeup and still look like yourself with just an extra flair of elegance, as I like to put it.

Don't get me wrong, it's not that I hate putting on make-up or anything or don't like it in general. I LOVE MAKE-UP! I LOVE the concepts of creativity and challenges that come with it. I love the challenge of being asked for a certain look and how would I execute it. One such thing was the "natural" look I was talking about. It is sort of a challenge because you want to look like you aren't wearing too much makeup (looking almost au natural)but once you get started you end up looking like you are going to some special party when you are only going to work or school and you also spend a good half an hour in the bathroom when it's only suppose to take 10 minutes. I realized if you are person with already really nice skin, it makes a whole of a difference. I don't have the greatest skin so making my skin look decent already is pretty time consuming. The rest is easy, some eyeliner on the top, some blush, mascara and lip balm and away I go (that portion only takes about 5 minutes or less).

Where am I going with all this? I'm not even sure to be honest. I've just been thinking about make-up a lot lately because I do miss it. I miss playing around with the colours, making new looks, finding new ways to make things easier and prettier ... Now that I have a job where I should look a little more decent (more professional I guess since it's an office), I have been wanting to spruce myself up a little more to feel more confident and alive to last me during the day. Plus, I do want to be a freelance make-up artist one day as a side business so I feel like I need to get my bearings down again since it's been a while. I figured, I need to set myself up as an example before I go and start sprucing up OTHER people again. I know I have the skills, I just lack a little practice.

I have been watching a lot of you-tube videos lately too on certain looks. Some make me laugh because they say "natural look" and yet the person looks like she's going to a club and it's 9 in the morning. REALLY? Or I noticed that a lot of girls out there wear A LOT of make-up; like they have an inch of foundation on their face and I don't see how that's a natural look either. Some girls are really good and really show good comparisons and techniques and really do follow through on what their advertising. Good for you girls.

Well ... I'll continue to play around with my make-up at home and see what I can come up with. I already am planning on doing some quick make-up shopping today and see if I can pick up some new stuff for good prices. That's another thing ... I LOVE MAKE-UP but don't want to spend hundreds of dollars on it. I'm the bargain, drugstore type that buys good products but for good prices. I mean, yes, I have some stuff from MAC and Sephora and all that but it has to be an item that I have deemed worth it. I am NOT going to buy a lip liner for $30 when I can get a drugstore one of nearly the same color for $3. See what I mean? That's why I have been shopping around ebay too ... there are soooooooo many nice eyeshadow palettes out there that are 120 colours for only $15!! Imagine that!!

Sigh ... Now I am going to do some shopping on ebay HAHA.

Labels: inspiration, life, thoughts, work

You know what I'm missing now that I am sitting in front of a computer every day? Blogging. Not just blogging. I miss having my own site. I miss having my own domain and tinkering around with layouts for wordpress and all that. I miss playing with my photoshop to create layouts and play around with coding. Now before I start up again, I want to really think about it because it's a project ... an ongoing project that I actually want to continue for a long time. It's been so long since I have played with HTML/CSS stuff that I am considering myself a newbie all over again.

I could start off slow and just make a new layout for this blogger just to get my bearings again. Really, once school is over and my exams are out of the way, I will have some time again to be reaquainted with my photoshop and my laptop. So I guess I won't really know how I feel about a future dedication until I am done finals. I think I will just start off slow. I'll revamp my blogger and see what I can do.

I am no stranger to Photoshop. I have been on it here and there trying to design my wedding invations and programs. That's a completely different thing though. That's just design and print off. Changing a layout is so much more work because coding is an ongoing process to see what works and what doesn't. I normally would spend hours just coding and coding with lots of frustration about why my left sidebar column won't show up and why my entries are wayyyyyy below than where they should be. I'm starting to get frustrated just thinking about it haha.

I do need more projects though. Without school, it's nothing but work, cook and sleep. I guess it would be nice to just stay at home and design/code layouts. I wont' have to go out as often and have a chance to save some money. Weddings are expensive after all.

Actually, one of my goals right now is to get back up to par with my coding because my fiance might want to restart his business again and he would want me to set up his website. That would be a fun project to do and it would be great if his business was successful as well! I have always wanted to have my own business but I don't know what to do a business about. Well that's a lie. What I really want to have a side business in is becoming a freelance makeup artist. It's difficult though. There are so many freelance makeup artists out there already who are established and who have the education.

I've never been to a beauty school. I would like to but I think at this point in my life, it would be a waste of time and money. I do love makeup though. I love playing with the colors, trying out new looks and applying it on other people. I know a lot of the basics and tips and tricks out there. I just need a push to get started. I need the equipment, I need the portfolio, the need the clientele. I have a few people who are willing to be my models and help me start a portfolio which is nice. I just need to save up money for a new camera because I don't have my DSLR anymore and I have always missed it so very much. My neighbour friend has one that she said she's always willing to lend me anytime I need it so I guess I can always use that if I really need it until I have the money to buy my own. This is a dream that I know I really have to plan out and think carefully about. It's not something that will boom right away. I need a lot of practice and a lot of equipment to get me started. When I have more time I will ask to practice on my friends and take their photos and make a portfolio somehow. Eventually I will have my own website to post these in and maybe someday I can become more established.

It's a dream for now but it's something that I have been thinking of for a while. It's actually something I have been thinking about ever since I got engaged. I was thinking about hiring someone to do my make-up or if I should do my own. Then when I was researching on local make-up bridal artists, I saw what they were charging, their styles and I thought to myself, OMG I can do that!! Why don't I do that as a side job?! Of course it is easier said than done, that's why it's a dream for now.

One of these days I'll be able to do it.

Labels: inspiration, life, thoughts

Amazing how simple motivations can really kick start your will and your spirit.  I am officially addicted to working out and keeping healthy.  I know it's a hard concept to comprehend for some people because I used to be one of those people.  It was always hard for me to understand how people can just workout all the time on their own free will.

That's where the motivation and addiction come into one relationship.  I have a motivation to workout because I am at a point in my life where I am serious about losing some weight and overall boost my self-esteem and gain some confidence in myself.  I pushed that motivated as hard as I could over the last couple of week and where did it get me?  I have lost 2 pounds in a week and another 8 in the last 5 days.  I went down 2 pants sizes and have gained confidence in myself whenever I look at myself now.  How can you say that you would quit after that?  That's where the addiction comes in.  Now knowing that it's possible to lose my wanted weight and possibly lose more and ACTUALLY get to my ultimate weight goal ... I can't stop now.  I'm in too deep and I am doing so well.

To get to my dream weight, I only have to lose 10 more pounds and just keep maintaining it.  I haven't slowed down or slacked off any way since I found out I lose 10 pounds and that's the way to do it.  Just this morning, I was actually up at 6:30am, went for a sunrise morning run for half an hour and continued to do my TAPOUT XT workout for another 50 minutes. 

Nothing is stopping this girl from getting what she wants.  This is one of the first things in my physical life that I have never given up on so far.  I have tried to workout before and quit within a few days but the fact that I have gone for almost a month now and haven't stopped and actually seen results ... I have never been prouder of myself.  This is a shining moment for me.  I don't know if any of you understand what I'm talking about here but if you ever (in whatever it is that you do, it doesn't have to be about fitness) feel so proud and so happy about yourself like you have never before, keep going.  Don't give up.  It's all worth in the end.

It's never easy but it's worth it.

Labels: Fitness, inspiration, life, self

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This weekend was such a loungin', relaxing, somewhat-productive weekend. The benefits of having really shit weather is that neither one of us wanted to step outside in the cold crazy winds, large raindrop showers and cold, and grey ominous skies.

What did we do all weekend? Haha. Like I said, loungin' and relaxin'. We were up so late on Friday playing Grand Theft Auto 5. I have to say it's a fun game. I didn't really play per se but I got to roam around a bit and randomly punch some people haha. I watched my fiance play quite a bit and it's pretty fun to watch. A friend of his and him played all night and we were up until 4am. So that meant Saturday was a write-off. We were up late again on Saturday because UFC was on with some pretty good card fights. The most I moved around was cooking some lunch and dinner for us. Really good chicken ... mmm ... glad there are leftovers for me to eat tonight.

In the midst of all the game playing and lounging was more drawing. I am on a roll! I managed to finish one of my art projects that I am quite proud of. I took my sweet time with it and I have to say it really shows when you do. I carefully planned out everything (well almost everything). This particular one, I had the cherry blossom branch done a long time ago because I was originally designing it as a tattoo I would possible have for myself then I thought about it because I wanted to change it and ended up using it for an art project. Check it out. This is my progressive work then the final product!


My Work In Progress


The Finished Product - "Spring Beginning"
I did that in a matter of two days and already got myself started on a new one. I actually had an original of this one but the look is incredibly different and I wanted to make it look nicer with a different style. Plus ... I can't find the original. It's somewhere in my parent's house along with other artworks that I cannot find (which pisses me off). One day I'll find it. Here's the progress so far ...


Blue Breeze - Work in Progress
So I have been drawing a lot lately and it's nice. I even set myself up an instagram account just for my artworks just so I can keep track of what I am doing and it is separate from my personal life. My user name is sharbarart if you would like to check it out. I tried to post whatever I could into with all the artworks that I at least have in my folders on my computer and wow ... I didn't expect such a welcomed response. I had so many likes that I guess it was an ego boost to my drawing skills. Looking through all of them and seeing the progress made me realize that I have improved a lot over the years. I was always so scared to draw something really nice because I was traumatized back in highschool.

I had a sketchbook that was my PRIZED POSSESSION. It was some of my BEST WORK EVER. For something at that age and just a beginning to my art days, I had never felt so proud of myself when it came to drawing. It made me wish I had a scanner or something back then but they weren't around much at that time. Anyways, I took it to school one day and the damn thing got stolen!!! I knew EXACTLY where I put it because, of course, I loved it so damn much and it got stolen. Ever since that day, I have been scared of drawing something incredible and still am to this day. That's why when I do draw something "nice", I take a photo right away or scan it. I'm slowly getting back into it again and maybe one day I'll do some commissions and make some money. Maybe that could be the side business that I have always wanted to start ... Sounds like the only logical thing at this point because all of my other ideas don't make much sense to me.

Anyways ... That's my weekend and my update on my passion in life ... art.

Labels: art, drawing, inspiration, life, memories, thoughts

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So I have been trying to draw and paint a lot more lately. With the cooler weather setting in slowly, this is my ultimate scene that I can say is my "relaxing time": I sit at my table, I'm wrapped in a nice warm blanket, a nice cup of hot coffee in once hand and the entire table is covered with my drawing pencils, markers, coloring pencils and watercolor paints and away I go with a funny show running in the background on TV. It might not be a great moment for most people but it is for me. It's my only time of the week where I can forget about my busy days at work and other daily stresses. I just focus on what I want to do and that is let my imagination run wild and draw.

Like I said last post, I've been pretty sporatic when it comes to my artwork because of so many factors. Mainly, it's about time. I don't have the time to do anything other than go to work, cook, clean, sleep and spend whatever time I can with my fiance. I've been really tired lately and I feel beaten down by time. These things kinda help though. I find some of my best work come from turmoil of some sorts. I remember looking back at some of my best drawings and I remember what I felt while I drew them. I was always letting out some big emotion and it was great that it showed through. So having all these daily stresses and bogged down emotions are a great motivator when I start drawing. Tunnel vision.


Above is something I drew back in February or March. I was actually listening to Bruno Mars' song "Talking To The Moon" and that song had a significant meaning to me at the time and I went with it. Plus I was wanting to be adventurous and try out my markers because I have always been very scared of them. I am not very good with them and was really scared that I would mess us really bad because I'm not very good with them but it turned out better than I thought. It's still not the greatest piece of work I have done but I'm happy considering my skill level with markers suck.


From my last post, I was saying how I was falling in love with watercolors but I needed to venture into more than just flowers and such. Since I love drawing girls and having that anime type style, I actually drew a girl and said, "Why the hell not try it out on her?" It turned out okay ... I'm not entirely happy with it. I think she's pretty but I could have done wayyy better on the dress or the hair but then again it's because of my watercolor painting skill not really being up to par. I want to be good!!!!! So I'm still practicing. I have a drawing in process right now that I'm planning on painting and I'll see how that goes. I'll try to take my time with it so that maybe it might turn out better.

What is your guys' way to let go, be free and relax?

Labels: drawing, inspiration, life, self, thoughts

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For the past few months (well to be realistic almost a year), I haven't worn too much makeup. There were a few reasons like I didn't want to spend the time doing it so I kept with just plain eyeliner and some lip balm; I didn't want to wear too much because I was having bad skin problems for a good few months and sometimes I was just too damn lazy. I do okay with just wearing the minimum since I didn't want to look like I hide behind make-up. I never really liked the look of looking like I was in some magazine photo shoot every single day. That's too much work and just TOO MUCH. The only reason I would really doll myself up was for special occasions and even so I didn't put on too much because I am an advocate of a natural look. There are ways to put on makeup and still look like yourself with just an extra flair of elegance, as I like to put it.

Don't get me wrong, it's not that I hate putting on make-up or anything or don't like it in general. I LOVE MAKE-UP! I LOVE the concepts of creativity and challenges that come with it. I love the challenge of being asked for a certain look and how would I execute it. One such thing was the "natural" look I was talking about. It is sort of a challenge because you want to look like you aren't wearing too much makeup (looking almost au natural)but once you get started you end up looking like you are going to some special party when you are only going to work or school and you also spend a good half an hour in the bathroom when it's only suppose to take 10 minutes. I realized if you are person with already really nice skin, it makes a whole of a difference. I don't have the greatest skin so making my skin look decent already is pretty time consuming. The rest is easy, some eyeliner on the top, some blush, mascara and lip balm and away I go (that portion only takes about 5 minutes or less).

Where am I going with all this? I'm not even sure to be honest. I've just been thinking about make-up a lot lately because I do miss it. I miss playing around with the colours, making new looks, finding new ways to make things easier and prettier ... Now that I have a job where I should look a little more decent (more professional I guess since it's an office), I have been wanting to spruce myself up a little more to feel more confident and alive to last me during the day. Plus, I do want to be a freelance make-up artist one day as a side business so I feel like I need to get my bearings down again since it's been a while. I figured, I need to set myself up as an example before I go and start sprucing up OTHER people again. I know I have the skills, I just lack a little practice.

I have been watching a lot of you-tube videos lately too on certain looks. Some make me laugh because they say "natural look" and yet the person looks like she's going to a club and it's 9 in the morning. REALLY? Or I noticed that a lot of girls out there wear A LOT of make-up; like they have an inch of foundation on their face and I don't see how that's a natural look either. Some girls are really good and really show good comparisons and techniques and really do follow through on what their advertising. Good for you girls.

Well ... I'll continue to play around with my make-up at home and see what I can come up with. I already am planning on doing some quick make-up shopping today and see if I can pick up some new stuff for good prices. That's another thing ... I LOVE MAKE-UP but don't want to spend hundreds of dollars on it. I'm the bargain, drugstore type that buys good products but for good prices. I mean, yes, I have some stuff from MAC and Sephora and all that but it has to be an item that I have deemed worth it. I am NOT going to buy a lip liner for $30 when I can get a drugstore one of nearly the same color for $3. See what I mean? That's why I have been shopping around ebay too ... there are soooooooo many nice eyeshadow palettes out there that are 120 colours for only $15!! Imagine that!!

Sigh ... Now I am going to do some shopping on ebay HAHA.

Labels: inspiration, life, thoughts, work

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You know what I'm missing now that I am sitting in front of a computer every day? Blogging. Not just blogging. I miss having my own site. I miss having my own domain and tinkering around with layouts for wordpress and all that. I miss playing with my photoshop to create layouts and play around with coding. Now before I start up again, I want to really think about it because it's a project ... an ongoing project that I actually want to continue for a long time. It's been so long since I have played with HTML/CSS stuff that I am considering myself a newbie all over again.

I could start off slow and just make a new layout for this blogger just to get my bearings again. Really, once school is over and my exams are out of the way, I will have some time again to be reaquainted with my photoshop and my laptop. So I guess I won't really know how I feel about a future dedication until I am done finals. I think I will just start off slow. I'll revamp my blogger and see what I can do.

I am no stranger to Photoshop. I have been on it here and there trying to design my wedding invations and programs. That's a completely different thing though. That's just design and print off. Changing a layout is so much more work because coding is an ongoing process to see what works and what doesn't. I normally would spend hours just coding and coding with lots of frustration about why my left sidebar column won't show up and why my entries are wayyyyyy below than where they should be. I'm starting to get frustrated just thinking about it haha.

I do need more projects though. Without school, it's nothing but work, cook and sleep. I guess it would be nice to just stay at home and design/code layouts. I wont' have to go out as often and have a chance to save some money. Weddings are expensive after all.

Actually, one of my goals right now is to get back up to par with my coding because my fiance might want to restart his business again and he would want me to set up his website. That would be a fun project to do and it would be great if his business was successful as well! I have always wanted to have my own business but I don't know what to do a business about. Well that's a lie. What I really want to have a side business in is becoming a freelance makeup artist. It's difficult though. There are so many freelance makeup artists out there already who are established and who have the education.

I've never been to a beauty school. I would like to but I think at this point in my life, it would be a waste of time and money. I do love makeup though. I love playing with the colors, trying out new looks and applying it on other people. I know a lot of the basics and tips and tricks out there. I just need a push to get started. I need the equipment, I need the portfolio, the need the clientele. I have a few people who are willing to be my models and help me start a portfolio which is nice. I just need to save up money for a new camera because I don't have my DSLR anymore and I have always missed it so very much. My neighbour friend has one that she said she's always willing to lend me anytime I need it so I guess I can always use that if I really need it until I have the money to buy my own. This is a dream that I know I really have to plan out and think carefully about. It's not something that will boom right away. I need a lot of practice and a lot of equipment to get me started. When I have more time I will ask to practice on my friends and take their photos and make a portfolio somehow. Eventually I will have my own website to post these in and maybe someday I can become more established.

It's a dream for now but it's something that I have been thinking of for a while. It's actually something I have been thinking about ever since I got engaged. I was thinking about hiring someone to do my make-up or if I should do my own. Then when I was researching on local make-up bridal artists, I saw what they were charging, their styles and I thought to myself, OMG I can do that!! Why don't I do that as a side job?! Of course it is easier said than done, that's why it's a dream for now.

One of these days I'll be able to do it.

Labels: inspiration, life, thoughts

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Amazing how simple motivations can really kick start your will and your spirit.  I am officially addicted to working out and keeping healthy.  I know it's a hard concept to comprehend for some people because I used to be one of those people.  It was always hard for me to understand how people can just workout all the time on their own free will.

That's where the motivation and addiction come into one relationship.  I have a motivation to workout because I am at a point in my life where I am serious about losing some weight and overall boost my self-esteem and gain some confidence in myself.  I pushed that motivated as hard as I could over the last couple of week and where did it get me?  I have lost 2 pounds in a week and another 8 in the last 5 days.  I went down 2 pants sizes and have gained confidence in myself whenever I look at myself now.  How can you say that you would quit after that?  That's where the addiction comes in.  Now knowing that it's possible to lose my wanted weight and possibly lose more and ACTUALLY get to my ultimate weight goal ... I can't stop now.  I'm in too deep and I am doing so well.

To get to my dream weight, I only have to lose 10 more pounds and just keep maintaining it.  I haven't slowed down or slacked off any way since I found out I lose 10 pounds and that's the way to do it.  Just this morning, I was actually up at 6:30am, went for a sunrise morning run for half an hour and continued to do my TAPOUT XT workout for another 50 minutes. 

Nothing is stopping this girl from getting what she wants.  This is one of the first things in my physical life that I have never given up on so far.  I have tried to workout before and quit within a few days but the fact that I have gone for almost a month now and haven't stopped and actually seen results ... I have never been prouder of myself.  This is a shining moment for me.  I don't know if any of you understand what I'm talking about here but if you ever (in whatever it is that you do, it doesn't have to be about fitness) feel so proud and so happy about yourself like you have never before, keep going.  Don't give up.  It's all worth in the end.

It's never easy but it's worth it.

Labels: Fitness, inspiration, life, self